Comfortability

Fleeting thoughts....

There are various levels of comfortability with people --- family, friends, office mates, colleagues and even acquaintances. And when I say that, its generally towards the platonic sense especially if you are married, engaged or in a relationship/union. No strings. Nothing at all. Just "friends".

In my honest opinion, comfortability between people transcends origins, backgrounds, beliefs, religion, distance, age, etc. Question is what if you find someone who frankly you are very comfortable with... meaning you are naturally you. Free. Alive. In your element. Genuinely you. And maybe --- just maybe --- over someone you are with. The person you are with you love so dearly (and yes, its the choice you made) but you have to "fight" every day to be "you". Or compromise to even get glimpses, patches or have moments of your true self. I will not argue the fact that some "unions" are meant for each other, but let's be realistic, there are others that don't work out as much as they try. They stay on but at what price. While others just bite the bullet, and go their separate ways.

It is quandary that you find someone whether your "soulmate" or soulmatesque -- that person that you totally connect with and finds yourself in your natural/true state -- BUT you are with someone else.

Emotions will tell you "Why now?", "What's this supposed to mean" or thought processes which will test you. On the other hand, Logic will tell you" You are with the one", "You made a choice", blah, blah. We've seen and felt this before the angel-devil conversations in your head.

I think I am going through one and I haven't told anyone -- well, maybe 1 --- and my "master" says to "walk the straight path". I think I've always walked the straight path and I've gotten so good at it that I can do cartwheels, somersaults and stuff on the darned path. I've disciplined myself so much that I can easily deny myself of certain emotions, and kill it just like that.
Until now.